Sleeps Under Beams

Verse I    
Staring out the window                      
I see the shadows of the moon         
Sadly they’re just deep, dark scars   
Still it’s haunting, beautiful                
Wakened from my reverie                 
By hurried voices                               
In the next rented room                      
Where there lies a different girl          
A lost soul, like me                             
Fated to live in this dark world           
Or cease to be                                  

Bridge     
So in pretty, painted faces                  
Each night we sing                            

Chorus     
Hey Mister                                           
Don’t you want to love me                  
I can pretend I’m loved by you                                   
You can hold me for an hour               
If you wish                                           
Your fantasies come true                    

Verse II   
Come the dawn of morning                
I feel empty and all alone                    
In the mirror, a stranger                      
Who wishes she could go home        
Lipstick and mascara smeared          
Salt black tears slide down                  
Last night’s rose colored cheeks        
I cry for the me long gone                    
A girl pure and free                              
Sacrificed in dirty sheets                     
She ceased to be

Mid Eight  
There’s an ache in a childhood stolen      
Magic dies when we’re in pain                                    
Forced to grow up too soon                      
Unseen scars remain                              

Bridge II      
So in pretty, painted face                           
Others will sing                                          

Chorus II     
Hey Mister                                                  
Don’t you want to love me                         
I can pretend I’m loved by you                                         
You can have me for an hour                     
If you wish                         

Your fantasies come true                           
But not me, not me                                 
My mind is broken, my body used          
No, not me, not me
I can no longer live this ruse

Verse III
I mourn the girl I was                           
And my ability to trust                          
Stolen by a savage hand                     
Ravaged by a monster’s lust               
No desire to live this life                       
I plan my escape                                  
A sad smile, one last pill                       
At last I can slip away                           
Leave this world behind                                    
A baby is born to take                            
My emptied space                                

Ending   
I’ll bless it in our passing                       
Place a precious kiss to its face           
Wish it a life of love and God’s grace

Verse I
Every Hello
Comes with it’s own pretty lie
Staying’s not your style
My Mister Goodbye
Too many times
These words you’ve weaved before
Afraid to believe
And let you back in
You’ll just change your mind

Chorus I
I can’t believe
You’re here today
But you won’t stay
Breezed back in 
And hit replay
Kissed me senseless
Left defenseless
To be swayed

Bridge I
Not again
Not this time
I was once a fool
With my eyes shut tight
But not blind
My lesson learned
A new frame of mind

Verse II
Still you want me, doesn’t matter
Hour glass I’ve shattered
My idle lips  
Stranded without your kiss
Instead blew time’s sand
Back to the sea
Like myself, it’s now free
You see My Mister Goodbye
Without a new beginning
No endings
This last goodbye
Is finally mine

Chorus II
Babe
You’re here today
But never stay
Breezed back in 
And hit replay
Kissed me senseless
But not defenseless
To be swayed

Bridge II
Not again
Not this time
No longer a fool
My eyes opened wide
They’re not blind
I’ve had enough
I refuse to try

Chorus III
Yes  
You’re here today
No need to stay
Breezed back in
But I won’t play
Not one more kiss
To mourn or miss
It’s good bye

Ending
This time the goodbye is mine
Mister Goodbye
 

Verse I
If I were to write you now with quill and ink
It would be in my own blood
A reminder of my testament
I bled for you and love
On scented parchment
I’d spill my secrets just before
I ask you let me explain
Where the words would pour
Such lovely words would pour

Pre Chorus
It wouldn’t take long to write
I’ve rehearsed the words a thousand times
A thousand times
But our stars haven’t crossed
In a silent while, in a silent while, in a si-lent while

Chorus
I can’t see you face to face
So I must write my own words
For you to read
And hope that when you finish
Finally you will see
The one who loves you most
Happens to be me

Mid Eight
I’m no angel
Not ever been a paper doll
with a paper heart
I’m sure not made of plastic
That can be pulled apart
No my arms are very real
And in them I hope you’ll feel
More love than you’ve ever felt before

Verse II
If I were to scribe you now with quill and
ink
It would be in my own blood
A scarlet letter of my confession
I present to you Love
On perfumed parchment
I’ll spill my secrets of heart
Begging you to hear me out
Where the words will pour

Pre Chorus
It won’t take long to write you
I’ve rehearsed the words a thousand times
But our paths haven’t crossed
In a silent while, in a silent while

Chorus II
I can not look you in the face
So I must write my own words
For you to read
And hope that when you finish
Finally you will see
The one that loves you forever
And that’s always me

Ending
Because no one
And I mean/vow no one
Will ever love you more
Love you more
 

Verse I 
Neither butterflies or angels 
Can fly with broken wings 
Nor can they soar 
When tethered by strings 
But you don’t really care 
In your quest to possess 
Such pretty things 
If you’re happy, that’s all that matters 

Bridge 
I cry now because she was both 
Once upon a time, once upon a time 
A colorful creature 
Of gentle soul 
Who breathed the divine 

Chorus 
She trusted you like the wind 
Thought you’d carry her higher 
But that was never the plan 
Instead 
Her freedom you stole 
Her wings laced with holes 
She was restrained not by chains 
But by your silver band

But by your silver band

But by your silver band 

Mid Eight 
You say you long for beauty 
In a world uninspiring 
Yet you’re blind to the ugliness 
You hide 
As you sit, watching her dying 
Fading more day by day 

Verse II 
How much more would she have become 
How high could she have flown 
If she were free 
Not claimed for your own 
But you have never cared 
In your quest to possess 
A pretty thing 
But you’re happy and that’s what matters 

Bridge 
I cry now because she was both 
Once upon a time, once upon a time 
A colorful creature 
Of gentle soul 
Who breathed the divine 

Chorus 
She trusted you like the wind 
Thought you’d carry her higher 
But that was never the plan 
Instead 
Her freedom you stole 
Her wings laced with holes 
She was restrained not by chains 
But by your silver band

But by your silver band

But by your silver band

Mid Eight 
You say you long for beauty 
In a world uninspiring 
Yet you’re blind to the ugliness 
You hide 
As you sit, watching her dying 
Fading more day by day 

But by your silver band

But by your silver band

But by your silver band

But by your silver band

But by your silver band

But by your silver band

Day by day
 

Ending 
Inside she is dying 
But only you matter 


 

Verse I 
There’s a sadness in your eyes 
I’ve never seen before 
Or has it always been there 
Like a small faded scar 
One hidden in the depths 
Of the beauty of who you are 
Or is it, melancholy new 
A fresher wound of woe 
Left unclean without those tears 
That you dam up and never show 
And never show 

Bridge I 
Maybe the time has come 
To let yourself weep 
If you would just realize 
Tears never make a man look weak 

Chorus I 
So if I held you close 
Would you let them flow 
I’d catch them up in a silver cup 
Sip on them slow 
So that if I caused even one of them 
I’ll choke on it and know 

Verse II 
Yes, there’s a look of sorrow 
I’ve never seen before 
Has anyone else noticed 
If they have, do they care 
Because it hurts my heart 
To think you’re shrouded by despair 
Such a kind, gentle soul you are 
I’d rather lose my tongue 
Than be the one who hurt you 
No, I don’t want to be that one 

Bridge II 
Babe, the time has come 
To let yourself weep 
If you would just realize 
Tears never made a man look weak 

Chorus 
So if I hold you close 
Will you let them flow 
I’ll catch them up in a silver cup 
Sip on them slow 
So that if I caused even one of them 
I’ll choke on it and know 

Ending 
So let them flow 
I’ll drink them up in a silver cup 
And if I caused even one 
I’ll know